ramblings of an old man in the usa

2004-03-10T17:01:00.000-08:00

2004-02-24T17:40:00.000-08:00

Well I have a new home. (to de casinha nova):

I'll see you there!!!!
So long hideous site......

2003-09-05T08:50:00.000-07:00

O show do Radiohead, algumas semanas atras me deixou frustrado. Eu entendo, a busca de um novo som e ate' gosto do ultimo album. Mas nao entendo a razao de ter guitarras e nao usa las... Acho que Thom Yorke deveria comecar sua carreira solo...

O show com o Mark no Soilled Dove foi um sucesso. Muito bacana. O jogo de luz, o publico, e e' claro, eu e o Dale (novo guitarrista da Flex Luther), arrebentamos. Convites para outros shows...e'hh coisa boa!

Falando em Mark, gravacoes para o documentario da PBS estao quase terminando. Estou contente com os resultados.

E para finalizar, hoje a noite, estamos finalizando os preparativos da viagem do ano!!! Lista de checagem do equipamento, jantares, e roteiro. Sairemos as 1:00PM no domingo
Rocky Mountain National Park, aqui vou eu!!!!

2003-08-16T07:38:00.000-07:00

O show com o Mark, quarta passada foi tao bom, que fomos convidados para tocar no Soilled Dove Tavern. Dia 3 de setembro!!! OOOuuuhhh!

2003-08-16T07:31:00.000-07:00

$ 600.00 dollares... E o resultado de um erro que jamais irei cometer: "nunca deixe seu laptop no chao, perto de uma garrafinha de agua". Bem, se tiver que comprar um novo, com todos os upgrades que tenho...custarar $1.350.00 dollares. Agora de uma olhadinha aqui. Nem acredito...quando comprei o meu...ainda paguei mais...usado...

Casa limpa, roupas lavadas, tv instalada no meu quarto. Gracas a minha determinacao ontem a noite, depois de chegar do trabalho. Queria ter o sabado de folga. Sem ter que me preocupar com trabalhos domiciliares...estou contente...he...he...Acho que ate vou fazer um cafe da manha...

2003-08-12T08:31:00.000-07:00

Tomando cafe esta manha, tentando relaxar, apos uma segunda de cao, resolvi assistir uns filminhos. Estou um pouco mais tranquilo com o show desta quarta feira. Eu e o Mark, ensaiamos ontem a tarde, e a musicas sairam mais naturais. Estou tocando meu upright bass, e para falar a verdade, estou tocando que e uma maravilha...

Estou saindo para descobrir o quanto irar me custar o conserto do laptop. Me desejem sorte...

2003-08-08T08:26:00.000-07:00

Olhe o que achei: Invisible (um poeminha que escrevi anos atras),vai ser republicado no livro: Eternal Portraits Series. Que palhacada...

2003-08-08T08:15:00.000-07:00

Entao vai acontecer: Uma excursao de backpacking para o Parque Nacional de Rocky Mountain. Sete dias dentro de uma das florestas mais bonitas dos EUA. Dia 7 de setembro, ao dia 14. Finalmente recebemos a liberacao do Parque, o que me ajudou a esquecer do laptop por um tempo...Falando nisso...levei ele para o concerto, ainda nao sei se vai poder ser concertado...Ja gastei $129.00 dollares so' para o tecnico abri lo.

note: tentei traduzir Backpacking no "altavista tradutor" e o resultado saiu como: embalagem trazeira. he...he...

2003-08-05T11:50:00.000-07:00

Ha' quatro meses atra's, eu comprei um VAIO usado de um amigo meu. Pentium4, bacaninha, e eu estava usando o laptop para gravacoes de campo, ensaios das bandas, e video games e' claro. Mas ontem a noite....eu derramei a'gua no bendito...e agora, nao consigo liga lo. QUE MERDA, meu!!!! Ainda mais agora, gravando a bateria para a banda do Eli... Vou ter que esperar alguns dias para ver se retorna a funcionar.

Terminei de tirar fotos com a minha pinhole camera, e com minha Holga. Sabado pego as provas...estou bem curioso para ver como ficaram.

Porra!!! Nao consigo parar de pensar no laptop....

2003-07-30T09:38:00.000-07:00

Tchau querido fusquinha...

2003-07-30T09:30:00.000-07:00

Holga e a mais nova adicao a minha nova colecao de cameras fotograficas!!! Ontem de manha terminei de construir minha pinhole camera...It looks nice...Eu nao sei da onde eu achei esta curiosidade por maquinas antigas e baratas. Acabei comprando a Holga do meu chefe, ontem a noite no trabalho. $20.00 dollares! Que barganha! Agora tenho que comecar a tirar fotos....

Hoje tenho ensaio com a banda Robot School, e tenho que voltar ao trabalho as 6:00PM. Amanha a noite, ensaio com a Flex Luther, e sexta com o Mark, para o documentario da PBS. Dai sabado, continuo trabalhando com a Maureen, tentando terminar o album dela. Isso tudo, tendo que trabalhar meu emprego regular na Coffee House...e vida mansa...

2003-07-28T15:41:00.000-07:00

Finalmente, encontrei a maquina fotografica dos meus sonhos...anos e anos procurando. Sabado passado fui a ARC, e nem acreditei quando encontrei a bendita, numa caixa...O unico problema agora e achar o filme 126. Liguei para a Kodak e descobri que eles descontinuaram a fabricacao de filme 126, em 1999. Mas acho que encontrei um velhote em New York: "Film for Classics" Um pouco mais caro do que eu pretendia...
Ah!!!E, em minha excursao atras do filme...acabei comprando uns 4 filmes 110. Vou comecar a construir minha pinhole camera !!!

2003-07-25T08:56:00.000-07:00

Tenho que dizer...eu continuo arrumando mais coisas para fazer, e logo vou acabar me matando de trabalhar. Fechei um "contratinho", ontem a noite com uma cantora. Vamos gravar um EP aqui no estudio de casa...Uma graninha extra, mas vai tomar bastante do meu tempo que ja e escarso. A uns dias atras andei comprando um livro sobe Flash, e ando fazendo bastante progresso. Minha preguica me empediu de aprender este software no passado, mas estou decidido a aprender. Ta um calor aqui em Denver...e quando digo calor...sem humidade sem nada...ate o brazileiro aqui, ta derretendo. Me da saudades de Santa Catarina.

2003-07-24T08:20:00.000-07:00

Eu decidi, finalmente voltar a escrever. Me realizei, que devo mandar noticias para meus amigos no Brazil, e na realidade, so arrumei problemas, com meus amigos americanos, quando escrevia em ingles...e duro falar a verdade .
Bem, as coisas estao indo bem. Eu tenho tocado com o Flex Luther, acabei de ser convidado para tocar na band "Robot School", e estou gravando a trilha sonora para um documentario da PBS de Boston, chamado "Trens e andarilhos". Eu postei um rascunho da primeira musica aqui. Falando em "Boulder Creek", este final de semana, fomos a Boulder navegamos o riacho com camaras de pneu. Super! Mas na metade do caminho, me perdi numa cachoeira, e me esfolei nas pedras...Cara, meus cotovelos, minhas costas, tudo ralado...mas estou me recuperando. Vou ficando por aqui...pois quero escrever mais amanha....

2003-01-12T08:06:00.000-08:00

Ahhh....nothing like playing with hobos...Poor guy, didn't even noticed us...Well today is Sunday, international day of recovery, for us drunks. I got an hour 'till my "Light Rail" comes to take me to work, so I figured, I had a little spare time to write. So for those who don't know, I broke two ribs, New Year's Day, hit by a drunk driver...How ironic...(well, I don't drive). And this morning, they were hurting like hell. Must be the weather. So I got some "plaster" at the Chinese Medicine Farmacy yesterday, and I put one on a little while ago...Man, It's like my ribs are brand new....Amazing! Tomorrow I'm going to go there, and get me acupunctured in the brain, see if I stop being a dork...

2003-01-08T02:05:00.000-08:00

Well, it's 3:45 AM. I'm back from work. Man...it sucked. But I got good news after checking my
e-mails...you see, I've been working on this project...the "viralata" thing, and I spoke with Bruce,
which is taking Keith's place, and he is all over it. Also Bianca whose going to sing, wrote me
that she should have everything together by next week...You guys have no idea how long this has
taking me me to put together...but it's coming to place. Soon. Yeah!!!!... And I took a limousine, back to the house after work...what a crack of shit...I thought it was funny. It turned out, the guy I was talking next to me at the "Thin Man" was a driver for a limousine company, nice fellow. Drove me home, no big deal...he...he...and the really funny thing is: I never wear jeans, but today, I was Mr. Denim. All in blue, including the white T-shirt underneath...my "GAP" denim shirt...what a cheese ball...riding in a limousine...May that be a sign for 2003...the limo, not the Denim.....

2003-01-07T09:28:00.000-08:00

The "Flex Luther" band thing, didn't worked out. Al is too much of a chicken to fire their bass player. I'm ok with it. I have enough trouble here at the house already. Well, cheers to all, and I'll get this thing going...

2002-11-02T18:52:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm back for good. Last time I did this was november...oops. I guess the holidays and all took a toll on me (what a crack of shit). I've been working on some new music. Finished a soundtrack for a little video game, which I have no idea if it's going to be released, working on a track for viralata, and a few other things. Life is good if you like lemonade, get it?

2002-10-22T12:47:00.000-07:00

How can one drink this much....Friday, Saturday and Sunday. But Monday, too? That's right. I also got trashed last night. Kind of feeling a little guilty, here. But it seems I wasn't alone. Catching up on my e-mails and missed phone calls, I noticed a lot of drinking from some other people...Hey join the club suckers! My weekend was a nice follow up from my last post. Anyway, I've been dreaming of red meat. Haven't had a hunk of flesh in a while...Hanging out with all those vegetarians is not so bad, but sometimes the old hunter, needs more than just tofu. (Well, tempeh is good). I'm ok now,....get it??

We made the newspaper a few months back, and I lost the stupid thing. But as you can see it, I found it.

2002-10-19T14:21:00.000-07:00

I don't know if it's the weather, Ryan Adams on my stereo (not Brian...ergh!!), or the fact that I had a great Friday night...I'm just feeling light headed...silly and retarded. Got out of work, last night, set outside the coffee house, just to hang out and talk some shit, and then... I look over my shoulder, to see... a familiar face. Right out of the blue, my old roommate from New York, was walking up the street with a couple of friends. Man, I couldn't believe it! What are the chances...It blew my brains out, my eyes...I don't know...I almost shit on my pants. The best part was having all my best friends at my house at the same time later on. Eli, Jenna and that little bastard, Al Rehm. What a rush! Turned out Al, is living here in Denver...Go figure. Not to mention I was up 'till 5:00AM laying in bed with Jenna just talking, and giggling, and making out, and talking, and giggling. What a bunch of freaks we are. I bought even some flowers for the apartment this morning. It looks nice in here. Eli is behaving these days, keeping the place clean, and that makes me happy. It reminds me of home, mom and dad. Ahhh...I should just kill myself. I hate being happy like this. I feel stupid. And I can't stop talking...To quote Tracy: "Gio is still a dork "

2002-10-17T09:38:00.000-07:00

I really don't wanna go to work. But somebody gotta pay the bills, and it sucks it is me. I was up last night, till 4:00 in the morning, I don't even remember what I was doing. Wasting my precious "sleeping" time...It doesn't help that I got out of work at 2:30 AM either.
Oh...hell. Tomorrow is friday, and I gotta the whole thing planned. WORK AGAIN!

2002-10-16T15:25:00.000-07:00

So, Tracy has something new. Check it out. 1/4, down on the left. Do you see anything familiar?

2002-10-16T10:19:00.000-07:00

Sit! Sit Giovanni...Good boy....

Can you believe this? Did a search on the name Giovanni. Besides the obvious, Nikki Giovanni, Aria Giovanni, Giovanni Ribisi, Pope John (Giovanni) Paul II....Well, I came across these seven furry little bastards. What happened to "Spike" and "Silvester"?

2002-10-14T22:42:00.000-07:00

Fall and its rust
is scarcely discordant
with the then
level of taste.

Oh, my mind
It is at its best
in winter, ALONE
in all these woods
it is unmoved
by the snow.

2002-10-14T22:22:00.000-07:00

i am a mix taper!

How indie are you? test by ridethefader

You're really enthusiastic about the music that you like. You attempt to discover your new favourite
band every week. You continually try to get your friends into the music you like, which annoys the fuck
out of them, but you don't know it. At least you're not arrogant about it.

2002-10-14T17:34:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm back. So much stuff going on...

Besides my regular job as a barista, taking pretty much all my time, I've been writing more music. Fall is such a great season. Been collaborating with fantastic musicians, from all over the world. The internet is a beautiful thing. But I must say, the highlight of this past week, was to be part of an incredible project, led by Kevin Powell from The Basement Lab. It turned out, I wrote the soundtrack for the new US Water Polo CD ROM. Eli co-produced and gave me a hand on the mixing. It was a blast. Because of copyright, and contract issues, I can't post the songs for you guys to hear. Maybe soon.

Happy Italian Heritage Day...!!!!!

2002-10-05T10:09:00.000-07:00

So it's done.

All I can Do (featuring Twinspirit)

2002-10-03T09:20:00.000-07:00

I now, officially belong , to the Coffee House subculture. And you know what? - I really like it. - especially because I'm the MC. "I'm running the show baby!"

Last night I received a .zip file from Tanisha, with some ideas for the vocals for "All I can do". Dude! They are amazing! She is a terrific singer. I can wait to mix'hem into the song. I'll post a link as soon as I can.

2002-09-29T22:40:00.000-07:00

I was surfing Acid Planet and found a very talented girl, with an amazing voice. She was looking for a collaboration, somebody to spice her song up. So I decided to help. Here is the final take, all under 2 hours:

Pure Baby Blues by Tanisha Rosby, a.k.a. Twinspirit, featuring Gio Toninelo on bass and arrangements. "I'm so cool, I can't hang with myself" Such an idiot.

2002-09-29T15:47:00.000-07:00

I went out with Jenna, to a Vietnamese Restaurant, on Friday night. It was amazing. The food was something else. I'm still having dreams about it. I actually worked with her today, and after, we went to a state sale. Some old lady had a heart attack, and they were selling all her stuff. Better, all her junk. I ended up buying an old slide projector. Pretty cool. But then I started to think...what if that happened to me. What if I died, and somebody had to sell my possessions. People walking around my house, stepping on my writings, old lyrics, flipping through my books, going through my drawers...playing my guitars...laughing at my insane CD collection...
Aaaahhhh!!!! It's a horrible thing. She probably died in that house, alone, maybe even watching one of her westerns ( she had a huge collection of John Wayne movies, kind of funny, 'cause I heard she was black ). Now she's gone and her stuff is all over the place.
Some of it will be trash by tomorrow. It's sad. And I feel bad.

May you rest in peace, old hag I will take good care of your projector, I promise!

2002-09-28T12:50:00.000-07:00

Ok. So I changed it a little. Not sure if I like it. Testing post, one two, three...I'm glad it's not me.....

A few new things... But I don't feel like writing. So here is something I found tonight: Nuclear Waste. If you want, you can type my "address" there. Let's say it is 27 Ogden St. and the zip code is 80218....well, close enough....Now, you will be able to see how close I am from this garbage.

2002-09-26T08:14:00.000-07:00

So I'm back on listening Pat Metheny. It seems that every year, at some time, I get the fever for his music. Weird....It's kind of embarrassing, but then so is most of the music I write. Go figure. It's better than listening to Survivor or Guns'n'Roses...he..he

Tatia Smith is on her way to record vocals for one of my tracks, which will be my first web collaboration piece. She actually lives in Plymouth, MN. Very exciting, I must say.

The new job is doing fine, thank you very much. Meeting lots of artists, getting free tickets for shows and concerts....and the money...aahhh...the money, is pretty good, too.

2002-09-22T21:58:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired, man. I haven't worked in a web site in years. But here it is: Ta Ta Tata !!!:

uNDER the wIRE

It's cute...he..he... Well I had a good day, made breakfast this morning, some huge pork chops with eggs and hash browns. So good ! Watched a couple of movies, ate some more, worked on my site, and I did everything in my boxers ! Fantastic !

2002-09-21T17:47:00.000-07:00

Good Lord !!!!!!

This one is for you Carmela

Don't ask me how I found this. But I had to post it. What in the hell was he thinking...ha..ha..Ha..HA..HA...HA...I'm dying here! Maybe you'll chuckle a little. Good Night!

2002-09-21T05:54:00.000-07:00

I read the other day, on "TIMES Mag", that the government waited 'till September, to start its campaign against Iraq, because of marketing rules. Apparently, August is not a good month to introduce new products to consumers. Can you believe it? It makes me think about the way we promote ourselves. Advice. Don't leave your house in August. Better: Why don't they take August out of the calendar. Even better: August should be vacation time for the whole world. Yeah! Now that's a good idea. I hate Bush.

2002-09-20T12:05:00.000-07:00

I can't believe it is Friday! I can't believe I have a day off either...Jesus!...I've been working like a horse. But it's all good, he..he...Next week I will start to "fly solo" at the coffee house. I'm seriously scared. Man, I hate making cappuccinos!!! Such a pain in the ass. I'm living in such a limbo right now...New job, new friends, so unhappy in my own house. But I'm starting to feel that things are going to be OK. I've been working on some music, and that always makes me feel better. I actually created a little site, so all of you guys can follow the progress of my new album. Here it is: Under the Wire
I'm not sure if the cover art is going to be the final one, and the songs don't have vocals yet. But it's a start.

On Wednesday night, I went to see Brian Jonestown Massacre . It was very fuckin' cool. It made me think about , perhaps changing my music direction. But then I thought, it wouldn't really be me, making my own original stuff, which I classify as: under graduated pop music for people who like smooth jazz.....whatever....

Anyway, life is getting better, but i'm still an idiot...

2002-09-14T07:03:00.000-07:00

So the new job is awesome. It's a lot of hard work, tough. I've already met a lot of cool people, got tickets for concerts, and got everybody pissed off at the restaurant I used to work. You see, I had to quit without notice. I wouldn't do that usually, if I hadn't been put on the spot. It sucks, but I got to look up for myself, and my interests. Anyway, I'm a barista now!

I also started to record some new songs. So far so good. With Eli here all the time, and my new roomate Jason, not having a job,
It was kind of hard to find some space to do it. But I decided to not give a fuck, so I've been locking myself in my room. What a drag, it's my God Damn house, too! Isn't it?

Jenna and I are not going to our backpacking trip, cause I got the new job. We are getting along just fine, but I don't see us as boyfriend and girlfriend. If you know what I mean.

Well, I gotta go. Gots to make some coffee....

2002-09-11T07:11:00.000-07:00

So I got a new job!I can not believe it!

At St. Marks's Coffee House
I start tomorrow. Eric, the owner, loved my resume. (I had little pictures, and set it up like a little story of my life...) What's killing me now, is how in the hell I'm going to tell the people at the restaurant I'm working right now that I'm quitting.........(?)..........

2002-09-10T07:39:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel I live in a "frat house".
I woke up this morning.....Jesus....beer bottles everywhere in the
living room...we had a little party last night. I just remembered.

It's raining here today. A good day for Miss Inspiration !

2002-09-07T00:24:00.000-07:00

So, "for those about to rock"...I don't salute you.
But if you care about jazz....here is the link:
Toast, the band.
It's my old jazz band...it's my old lame ass band...it's one of my best memories...

2002-09-05T21:07:00.000-07:00

So I'm back. I decided to take a little time off from the computer.
In between whiskey and cheesy music...I got lost...he..he..
I found myself coming this way again...not because of an itch, nor because of
boredom. But because it brings me solitude without the feeling of emptiness.
And I like that. Tonight there's a party here at the apartment. I don't feel like "hanging out".
Besides the conversations don't make my brain spark. I decided to stay in my bedroom, and do
something productive. I need my space, and I need it bad. Am I selfish? I guess.
I don't like to share myself too much.
"What an illusion......"

2002-09-01T23:48:00.000-07:00

I've been surfing the net for a while tonight. Actually for a long time...looking for music. Look what I've found:Nickel Creek That's their blog....They're so cute....he...he...I wanna hug them...he...he...Do you smell the cheese?

2002-09-01T11:24:00.000-07:00

This is me, drunk as a skunk

I had to put this one up, before I left the house...Circa 2000, Lake Placid NY. Some Pub....

2002-09-01T10:54:00.000-07:00

I'm hurting here....Too much whiskey. Somehow I end up going out last night. My roomate, Eli and a few other friends, took me to the bar up the street..."Ogden Street Tavern". It was karaoke night....I even sang a song! Stupid drunk I was. Now I have to help Jenna move.... And I'm late....and I hate moving furniture...Damn it! Where the hell are my matches, #%$@*!!!!!!!!

2002-08-30T07:39:00.000-07:00

A few years back, when I was writing for Vies, (an on-line magazine back then directed by sister), I
wrote a review for the VMA's on MTV. So, last night, Eli came home from work with some beers, and
we end up watching the show straight from the beginning. Not much changed since the last time.
Eminem still there...a shit load of R&B crap...and of course, your usual "not funny at all" host. Also I
must add, an appearance out of the blue by Guns and Roses.....(?)......!!!!! Whatever.... But I was
surprised. James Brown showed up. Unfortunately he didn't perform. And the Hives kicked some ass.
They were probably the best thing on the show. It's sad. The music industry sucks now a days, it has
been sucking for a while, to be honest. But it's not entirely their fault. Something to say about the stupid
population of this world, who buys their product, who demands it. Who makes it possible. Poor
ignorant minds...

In another note, I felt compelled to get my recording equipment out of the boxes. Since I moved in
with Eli, microphones, mixing boards, all my stuff was being stored in a closet in the living room. I
thought it was time to start writing some music. It makes me feel better about myself. I'm also uploading
some jazz songs to the web. Some old tunes recorded live by my old band Toast from NY. I found
some tapes yesterday....some of those recordings are pretty funny. Drunk white boys playing jazz in a
dive bar....full of red necks...he..he...now that's a video for MTV....well....not really. More like Jerry
Springer.

2002-08-27T19:12:00.000-07:00

Joseph Seagram & Sons....they stole my brain.
But they will give it back tomorrow...so they say...

2002-08-26T22:08:00.000-07:00

I'm still thinking about this morning. It was like my brain opened up a dam. I might be in love... And
when I fall in love, I usually feel great for a few days. It's that feeling of being invincible and profuse at
the same time. (ehh...I don't know if I make any sense...) But then, I get scared... I've met this girl, her
name is Jenna. She works at the coffee house next to the restaurant where I work. It all started very
mellow...a few conversations here and there, and we went out a few times. We are going on a
backpacking trip on the 18th of September, too. And I do like her....but I'm scared and I don't know
what do think of it. Scared of being in a relationship again?
Not at all. Scared of being to old for that. I'm tired of beginnings.

2002-08-26T11:52:00.000-07:00

What a dreadful morning...Sometimes I ask myself how can "one" (in this case, me), go to sleep in such
good spirit, and wake up the next day, in a terrible depressed mood. Like every other day...I got out of
bed, smoked a cigarette...made a cup of coffee. But my next actions were completely self destructive
(well, like smoking and drinking coffee like a maniac are not...."?"....): I pulled out a Nick Drake CD,
opened the window blinds and cried through out the whole album. Then, if that wasn't enough, I reached
for my copy of Grace, and the rest you know........(sigh.....)......Right now I'm a little better. Tom Waits
is mumbling on the stereo, and I'm trying to figure out what happened.

When I was younger, younger than before
I never saw the truth hanging from the door
And now I'm older see it face to face
And now I'm older gotta get up clean the place.

2002-08-25T20:45:00.000-07:00

WARNING! The following post does not make any sense

Hoje e' Domingo....Pe' de cachimbo....Jenna called me...he..he...

2002-08-25T09:24:00.000-07:00

Ahhh....My daily grooming activities...Shaving my face. I hate it. But today is Sunday, and I found out I
don't have to work tonight. So today I'm going to be "City Cave Man" for the first time in a month! It's
only a five o'clock shade, but for me, it feels like a Rain Forest of hair has grown since yesterday....and City
Cave Man is right! I've been hiding in my apartment all week long. Jenna hasn't called me, and with rent
due at the end of the month, I can't spend much money. So I stay home. But once again...today is
Sunday!!! I feel obligated to to something. So I'm going to Glennwood Springs...pick up a dead body.
Errh??? What? That's right. My friend Jimmy, who's a mortician and a driver for a Funeral Home called
me and asked me if I would help him. YeaH!!! What a Sunday!..........(?)!!!!!

2002-08-24T00:27:00.000-07:00

As the thunder rumbles outside my window, the rain makes the heat over this “Old Town” unbearable
(it's so humid!) . The spotlight in the corner of my room, makes me feel like a prisoner in an interrogation
room, somewhere, maybe in Peru. WHY ARE YOU STILL AWAKE?

2002-08-23T12:11:00.000-07:00

It's so odd when you receive advice from people you least expect to do it right. Rebecca came over last
night. We when up on the roof of my building, drank some beers and talked a lot. I don't know, but
maybe the scenery helped. It was so beautiful last night! The sunset....lightning over the mountains...I
had a good time. Full of decent conversations and with a little help from "Mother Nature". As a result,
I started my list of goals this morning!!! I even cooked breakfast!!! Anyway, I think I'm going to be
OK.

2002-08-22T17:28:00.000-07:00

I hate working the lunch shifts at the restaurant.
You make no money. Today I made $ 12.00 dollars.
Four hours of work. IT SUCKED!!!!!!!! So I decided to write a little list of
things you can buy (here in Denver) for that kind of money:
- 3 1/2 packs of Camels
- 12 bus/metro tickets (Here, they don't call it metro. They call it "Light Rail")
- 1 case of Pabst Blue Ribbon
- 1 ticket to see the band "16 Horse Power"
- 1 Movie ticket
- 3 new releases at Blockbuster's
- 2 DiGiorno Pizzas
- 1 cd for sale at Virgin
- 2 cocktails at the Skylark
- and 1 Brazilian slave for four hours.

Damn it! Those cheap bastards!
I love you Carmela.

2002-08-21T18:30:00.000-07:00

The following is copy of a review left at my AP music page, by an old man (really! he is 55 or
something!): -"very nice 'pop' feel to it overall, superbly produced. The drums especially attract me
to the song, not complex but just what I like. The bass and guitar work is great, understated and natural,
the other 'fx' and processing noises were interesting, it certainly kept me from knowing where the song
was going to go. Very nice work."- Anyway, the review made me very happy this evening. So I
tried to go to the park. But if I tell you that 10 min. later, started to rain, would you believe me? Well, it
did rain!!! Not so bad for Colorado weather these days, but it sucked for me. So much for a little sun
on my pale skin. Then, I promised myself not to spend so much time in front of the computer. I
tried. It’s so hard when it’s raining outside. But I’m going to be good now. I got the“Miles Autobiography” from Eli.
Maybe it's a good time to finish reading it. Have a goodnight "Ol'Man World"

2002-08-21T13:36:00.000-07:00

2002-08-21T12:23:00.000-07:00

So I’ve been thinking....What if we were born with a certain amount of determination.....Say, you were born with a full
tank of “determination”, like.... (kind of hard to measure this), let’s say, 100 liters of it. I realize today: I think I’m
running low......

2002-08-21T08:43:00.000-07:00

I’m so bored, i think my brain is going to stop working....I’ve been trying to create a list of things to do with my day,
but it seems so hard these days....I wish I could sit in front of the computer all day, smoke two packs of cigarettes and
drink two pots of coffee....with no guilt trip! And that’s probably what i am going to do....I want Jenna to call me
today.